Move Mountains

My Mind when I was growing up had always been curious about what God is. If there is God why do all these bad things happen? At the time when asking myself this question, this was my setting...  

Well first let me say the practice I had just had. I am sitting in meditation attempting to remember the first time I had a thought. 

It was the first time I put on headphones, My world was rocked to its core. All the sudden I am like flinged from some other lands and I think oh shit not this again. So I start to shake my head. This gives me a sense of control over the way I feel inside. And I fall asleep. 

When I was learning I observed you can watch other people and the way that they act and you can learn from what they do. So i was always curious as to What others were doing. I was fascinated by what others do and how they act. And how that affected their life.  

It felt like I could see through people and their blindness to their problems. Like for example when my parents who I thought loved each other a lot, would come out of the bathroom after being in there for 45 minutes, They would bicker and yell and argue about the smallest things, eventually it would get physical by the start of throwing things and then it would proceed to them hitting each other for hours. 

This always frustrated me because I could always tell it was over something trivial that they didn't really care about, like drinking the last beer, but one of them was trying to prove a point. So, they wouldn’t let go of their side of the argument even if it was illogical. Then that would create a strain on the bond that they felt because of the problem that they were choosing to have at the moment by not seeing the other persons point of view and their problems would always get blown way out of proportion, so they would think more negatively about the experience believing the problem to be bigger than it really is. Which creates a kind of self-defeatist attitude. 

Believing your problems are real is the best way to block yourself from overcoming them, In reality everything in No Problem, if you focus on it. What I'm saying is the mind is using its emotions to make problems out of the nothingness that life truly is. When you don't let things be a problem to you, we are able to move mountains.